Marsha's Musings: Respectable Sins Update

After reading my chapters and doing the work book on Monday for our women's study on "Respectable Sins", I was put to the test and failed miserably on Tuesday.

We were planning to install a new hard drive on our computer and remove the second hard drive and replace it with the old main hard drive. I needed to backup all my files from the second hard drive or move them to the main one before the installation was done. We agreed we would do it a week from this past Tuesday. I figured I had a week to do what I was supposed to do and to contact Net Nanny to ask what would be the best way to move that program from the second hard drive to the main one.

Tuesday evening I was gone and when I came home I found my husband had a friend come over and they had already made all the hard drive switches before I had a chance to contact Net Nanny. It was disastrous. Our computer was basically rendered useless because of the errors Net Nanny kept throwing at us at every turn. Removing the program was virtually impossible. Needless to say, we were both angry. I was in trouble for not getting the stuff taken care of on the second drive and I was mad because I thought I had a week to do it when in reality I was given 24 hours. It was not a pretty picture.

I went to bed in tears because I was so mad I could have chewed nails. After went to bed then I began to think about the study "Respectable Sins" and then I was mad at myself because I knew I was sinning with my attitude and actions.

The next day was no better. Nothing worked on the computer and I wasted untold hours on it. I was clearly in need of another attitude adjustment. I went to Women's Bible study Wed. night and during the discussion we were talking about sins of the tongue and when we criticize our husbands behind their backs to our children. I just sat there with tears running down my cheeks as the women were talking about this. I had to go home and confess my sin to my children and apologize to my husband for the ugliness that spewed from me.

As I write this post, our computer is finally fixed and working right. Net Nanny is running the way it should. I learned a lot about my heart and where I need to really work on my attitudes.

I expect that as we progress through this study, that the Evil One will be attacking all us in ways we never imagined and God will allow things to come into our lives to test us and reveal our weaknesses in our characters. I covet your prayers in the months ahead. Already it is one of the hardest studies I've been involved in.