Waiting to See if God Will Open or Close the Door to a Job Opportunity for Me

Goodness!  The last week has been a whirlwind!  I'm exhausted.

I started study for a big test that hopefully I will find out the results of today.  I had 7 days to study 137 pages and take an 8-10 hour test on it.  The day I got the material and started to study, everything went wrong.

The program we had been using for Geometry on Khan Academy went to pot. Pages would not work and the way the exercies were set up changed, leaving us stuck for hours on one problem.  So that took precious time away from my study.

Researching and looking for a new program that would work for geometry took more time away from my study.

Then the main computer that I had planned to take the test on. Crashed.  I planned also to work from this computer if I passed the test and got hired.  Rick spent hours trying to fix it.  He was finally successful, but it is so old an unreliable that I realized I can't use it for anything important.

So we researched and have ordered a new laptop computer to repace the old desktop.  It is on the way in the mail now.

We had a big church social last week as well, which hasn't happened in a long time, but did last week...taking more precious study time out of my schedule.  Don't get me wrong...I thoroughly enjoyed the social time. It just came at a bad time for me.

Homeschool Co-op also started last week.  I did skip out of volunteering for it last week and went to the coffee shop to study.  That was a good move. But it was one more thing on my schedule to drive to.

There were other things that happened in the last 7 days that interrupted my study time and I ended up having to kick Nathaniel off his computer during school so I could use it for my test.  He was a trooper and graciously allowed me to use it without a fuss.

With all that was against me this week in getting to study for this test and take it, I began to doubt if God really wanted me to do this.  I still don't know if He wants me to do it because I won't know until around noon today if I passed the test.

But all I can say right now is if I pass this test and get the job, then it's because God wants me to do this.  It will be all because of His grace and guidance in my study and answsing the test questions that I pass it.  I really can't take credit for it, because everything seemed to be against me doing it.

Now we wait and see.  Does God really want me to do this job?  Will He close the door to this opportunity?  Or will He open it for me?  Stay tuned.