Marsha's Musings: Sarah's 16th Birthday Today

Sarah is my first-born. Today she is sixteen years old. Hard to believe. We never thought we would have any children. Sarah was born after we had been married ten years. Here are some thoughts I found in my journals from before I became pregnant with her.

November 6, 1989
Psalm 143:7 ¶ Hear me speedily, O LORD: my spirit faileth: hide not thy face from me, lest I be like unto them that go down into the pit. 8 Cause me to hear thy lovingkindness in the morning; for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto thee.

November 9, 1989
I never finished the above entry except to write out the Scripture. I was so depressed, so discouraged; I spent the whole evening in tears. I was teary the whole day. I just was feeling as if we will never have any babies to call our own whether adopted or natural. I felt as if my prayers were never getting any higher than the ceiling. Holidays are getting more and more difficult because they center around children. So many things center around children and it has really been getting me down.

June 15, 1990
I heard Chuck Swindoll speaking on John 21:15-25 where Jesus asks Peter three times, "Do you love me? Fee my lambs."
Peter then saw John and said, "What about him?"
Jesus said, "What is that to you? Follow me!"
Chuck Swindoll applied it in a number of ways, but the hardest one he used was, "Lord, my neighbor has five kids already and is pregnant with one! What about that Lord?"
And Jesus answers, "What is that to you? Follow me!"
Jesus wants me to get my eyes off the others who have what I want, who get "better lots" in life and keep my eyes on Him and follow Him. He will lead me to the place He wants me. I need to be content in His will.

May 16, 1992
God is a God of surprises! I am pregnant!

So now we fast forward sixteen years and nine months ahead and that brings us to Sarah's sixteenth birthday. What a blessing she has been to us! Happy Birthday, Sarah!