Marsha's Musings: Here I Sit

Here I sit, sick again. This time it's not just sinus junk and feeling bad, this time it's in my chest with a deep cough. My daughter is sick too. My son is walking around the house with a container of disinfectant wipes in hand, wiping down anything he plans to touch and scurrying to stay three feet away from me as if I have leprosy or something. But, he is not sick yet. So maybe he is on to something here.

I am wrapped up in a blanket with heat packs on and a humidifier spewing mist over me, the lap top on my lap and Quartto Geletto playing on the DVD player. Apple cider Vinegar water sits next to me as well as Echinacea lozenges. I think I am all settled in for some time on the couch...I also have a stack of Cosby DVD's, Agent Cody Banks 2 movie and a Ken Davis comedy DVD. I even have the phone here so I don't have to get up to answer it! The only thing I need to get up for is to change the DVD, make lunch and use the bathroom.

Last night I did my study for the women's book study at church. It's tomorrow night, but I doubt I'll be able to attend. But it was an appropriate study for me. Jerry Bridges in his book, Respectable Sins, talks about anxiety, frustration and discontent. It was good that I did this study just before getting sick. It has given me new perspective on difficult circumstances. He points out Psalm 139:16 which says,

"Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them." (NKJV)

Jerry Bridges points out that God preordained my days before they even started. He knows all about me and He knows the plans He has for me each day. It is tempting for me to get upset and frustrated about the fact that each time I have set about to get my house in order, I have either gotten sick or ended up "wasting" time at therapy or chiropractic for my neck/upper back. But as I read what Jerry Bridges says and what the Bible says about God planning my days out ahead of me, it changes the way I look at being sick right now and all that is not getting accomplished around the house like I had planned. Obviously, God has other plans in mind for me that are different than my plans right now.