Gluten Intolerance & Sugar Blues

I had some kids over Thursday for smores around our fire pit. I had a giant Hershey's Bar open, along with Graham Crackers and Marshmallows.

First off, I didn't have the good sense to stay out of the Hershey's Bar. Chocolate affects me later in the month even it I eat it earlier. So I shouldn't have even been drooling over it in the first place.

Secondly, I never even thought about the fact that the kids would drop cracker crumbs on it while fixing their smores. So when I ate some of the chocolate bar, I got glutenized.

Thirdly, I didn't have the good sense to eat only one or two roasted marshmallows, I ate five of them!

So Saturday morning I woke up at 5am in a mess. My head was pounding with a sugar hang-over, I was having a low blood sugar episode and nearly fainted in the kitchen and I had canker sores on my tongue.

Did I learn my lesson??? No! Last night I saw the remainder of the Hershey's Bar sitting on the counter and I rationalized that if I didn't eat it my husband would and he didn't need the soy. The thought never even entered my mind that it was contaminated with gluten! I woofed it down when no one was looking. As a result, I didn't sleep all too well last night. The canker sores on my tongue have gotten more painful and I was being awakened every time I had to swallowed. It was not a good night. I am so frustrated with myself for being so careless and for succumbing to the temptation to eat it! I craved it. It was like I couldn't control myself as long as that chocolate was staring me in the face! I am paying for it now, but I'll pay for it again big time when that time of the month comes. It's a double whammy and it is all my fault. UGH. I hate that.

I think sin is like that. Perhaps this was sin! It looks you in the face and it is so inviting. It looks so good! You just start to feel like you can't do without what ever it is. Then when you give in to the temptation, the results are far less than desirable and you wish you had never even considered it in the first place. It causes you all kinds of grief and trouble in the long run.

Man, I think this goes back to the issue of unthankfulness that I have written about in other posts. When you want something so badly, that you just HAVE to have it, perhaps you need to step back and ask yourself, "Am I content with what I have? Why do I have to have THIS thing so badly that I'm willing to compromise my health (or reputation, relationship with God, etc.) to have it? Am I thankful for what I have? If so, why do I think I need this other thing?" Why do I have to learn these lessons the hard way so often???